Tupac

If Tupac was confused then so is society and the millions of fans who have exhaulted him. However it may not be a bad thing. I like the word confused for describing Tupac in the following sense: he was confused with the way his people and community were being treated. He was confused by the way in which they were treating eachother. He was confused about the conditions in which they were living. Tupac was confused as to why this was going on after hearing and learning in schools about the civil rights movements, and he was confused because he would hear all of this from white men and women. Which in trun made tupac confsed about why there werent men and women voicing themselves like so many in the past.
So yes in a certain sense of the word Tupac was confused, but it was that confusion and his lack of acceptance of the confusion that led eventually to his corageousness. It was his drive to end this confusion within the lyrics and persona's that he created. He was an educated man who wasnt scared to stand up and become a voce for this all penetrating "Thug Life" of the time.

Definition of my Life

My life up until this point has been defined by two seperate but equally effecting factors. Both being an athelet and eing a student. Both things have been a part of my life since the early age of 6 and have almost solely defined my activities, interests, and relationships since then. Those have been the structure of my life for over 15 years.....go to school, practice whatever sport is in season, go home and do school work, hang out with friends i eaither met on a team or at school.
Growing up in a big city in florida however allowed for my expierences to be diverse in both sports and school giving me a wide range of friends, to a very extensive array of competition in sports. But these two seperate entities of my life have allowed me to experience multiple people, places, situations, and obstacles that have shaped me into the person i am today.

Home

Home to me means family and friends who always have your back. It means not worrying about what you do or how you loo because everyone already knows you for who you are. it mans having fun doing nothing but chillen. It means bar b q' on the weekend, fishing in the summer time, and goin to the beach everyday. I do miss being home a lot now that I live over 2000 miles away, and i do sometimes sense a feeling of alienation. Its hard not knowing the everyday activities that are goin on with all of the important people in my life. I miss the small jokes or the call ups just to hang out cuz there is nothing else to do. But while i miss it all i know it will always be there because home is wherever you make it and as long as you hold good relationships t will never change.

IS there a God

If I had to bet everything on there being some type of God, I would. I feel that there must be some type of higher power for us to have been created. We are to perfect of an animal for us to have been created by accident. I also feel that without some type of higher belief it would be hard to find much of a meaning in life. While i say this i must also say that i dont believe in any type of organized religion. This is where i differ from my presbatyrian parents. they taught me all about their christian beliefs while i was grwoing up and those beliefs rubbed off on me but not all the way.I hold many of the basic christian beliefs, but as I grew older i became very skeptcal about going to church just to give money and recite word for word the same prayers as everyone else around me. I found it hard to believe that those types of rituals is what religion is all about, and are needed in order to keep God happy and to be a good Christian. I feel an individuals personal relationship with God is a good measure of their religious standing.